I feel lighter.
I decided I should post something on here. Upon this decision I started thinking what I should post about.
I can’t think of anything, or rather I can’t think of anything too negative that won’t be fixed within a day or two. After years of caring for others and making sure everything was ok, not giving a damn about my own life or how shitty I was treated it looks like things are really looking up for me. The future shows so much promise of love and happiness that I wish I could just slept until that time came.
My life has quite literally been flipped turned up side down, for the better. I’m smiling more than I ever have without provoking people around me trying to make me laugh. A simple thought, one simple thought will come to mind and instantly my day is brightened.
I think people can feel the relaxation emanating from my body. I think people can tell that I’m walking lightly on my feet and that I’m a whole new me. I like it. I like this new me that is under construction. I like the support I’m getting and the looks of approval even when I do the smallest of actions. I like that I’m learning more about myself and getting comfortable with showing me, the real me.
I was damaged before, I still am. But it’s only a crack. A faint scrap of what has happened in the past. I’m healed. Progressing past my past I can look forward and see light. It’s welcoming and warm.
Me: Can I use the bathroom? Teacher: I don’t know, can you? Me: When I was using “can” I was using its secondary model form as a verbal modifier asking for permission, as opposed to expressing an ability. I thought since you were a teacher you’d know that. My bad. MAY I use the restroom?
TEACHER:
OTHER STUDENTS IN THE CLASS:
AND I’M JUST LIKE :
